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On facing bullies, inner critics and your own ambition | Spring Awakening – A Series of Small Attempts to Change No. 6

In the last week’s I wrote about a lot of big changes: I learned how to recognise a toxic friend and know when it’s time to end a friendship, I accepted to do nothing, I embraced chaotic energy and found my edge aka started to set healthier boundaries. This one is about facing a bully and pre-success-mode.

10 years ago I was living in Hildesheim, a small city in the north of Germany. I was doing a master’s degree I didn’t particularly care for in the realm of theatre and performance. Something close to what I wanted to do but not quite it. I didn’t care about theory and abstract talk, I wanted to make theatre, I wanted to write. I wanted to be an artist not a scholar.

So I tried to squeeze out any opportunity to visit the creative writing workshops that were offered by the literary department and sometimes allowed students that were not in the course to take part. Eventually I applied for the playwriting and dramaturgy course Szenisches Schreiben at the University of Arts in Berlin an…