Unfortunately one cannot freeze emotions
On Cold Water Therapy & Heartbreak | Glimpse of Summer Ep. 7
“If you take care of the small things, the big things take care of themselves. You can gain more control over your life by paying closer attention to the little things.” Emily Dickinson once said.
It’s been 12 days since I started to wake up in the morning, study the tide chart and decide when to walk to the beach, and immerse myself in the cold, very cold waters of Portobello bay.
12 days of just doing it, without huge effort, just trusting that it will somehow help, not questioning it. It’s easy: the beach is 3 minutes away, I just go in my bathing suit, in and out, done.
I still cry every day. Unfortunately one cannot freeze emotions.
But I don’t question that either. I let it be, let the emotion like waves wash over, let them startle me from time to time, feel them rising up, especially when I catch myself thinking: Oh I’m definitely done with the crying.
– I am so not.